And I survived. Last night I delivered my PechaKucha, "drawing is her most fun thing to do" Series 1 Forster. Delivered. Done. Dusted. Complete. And I survived. I was in the company of five other amazingly talented artisans and truth be told the last few weeks there has been some serious conversations going on in my head. Swaying from "you are so out of your league" to "just to it" back to "just who do you think you are?" back to " guess what? You're gunna fake it til you make it" and so much more in between. So that indeed is what my mantra would be. Fake it til ya make it baby.
The whole 20x20 presentation concept is uber cool, 20 slides and 20 seconds to chat about each slide, uber cool yes, whilst still being extremely scary for me. I can say scary now, I had deleted that word from vocabulary in the past two weeks. I changed the word to excited, mmmm the mind games I have played with myself in the past month! But I did, I changed the word scared to excited and it did kind of work. Normally faced with talking to a group of people, even though I'm fond of a chat, I become a basket case that is prone to sitting on the toilet all day bound to it because the nerves get the better of me. That did not happen!! Did not!!
I did practice and practice and practice. I have a divine friend who knows her stuff, she knows microphones and performing and I admire her ability to be so comfortable with both. She is a treasure and a gift and she shared her knowledge with me and she listened to me practice and I am eternally grateful. I also have an amazing support network of family and friends who live near and far that sometimes believe in me better than I believe in myself and for them I am also truly grateful and so very humbled.
I've also had some profound reading material arrive on my doorstep in the past two weeks. Flow magazine which I just adore had an article on stepping outside your comfort zone, well Hello, read and well noted. I also bought sproutonlinemagazine. Awaken. Beautiful. Just beautiful. I also read some others peoples blogs and thoughts on their PechaKucha's, very helpful. Beautiful reading and inspiring and all gave me gentle little pushes in the direction I wanted to go.
So fast forward to last night, I was the second presenter and the nerves crept in a little, but armed with the knowledge I had practiced, I knew my words and they matched my slides cause my kids had to sit through the slide show at home with me in heels and a wii remote for a microphone a number if times, ok lots of times and I had a huge amount of beautiful friendly, supportive family and friends and a totally ace audience, the vibe at The Laneway was warm and welcoming and even though my heartbeat was quickening I decided to embrace the experience, after all, seriously what was the worst thing that could happen? That I will not know!
Amidst my heart now racing I delivered my PechaKucha, I did it. A couple of stumbles and only I would know I mixed a couple of lines up, I got through it and I survived. Six minutes and forty seconds, I told my story. A rather tall little girl with teeth to grow into and hair that needed taming grew up and she owns her own shop and she gets to draw and colour and paint and create everyday, she tries to live inspired and she is always grateful and she loves her life. Yep, in a nutshell that is who I am and that is what I do. That innate fear of public speaking was not overcome but I gave it a shove. And I was so happy and glad I did, and relieved, I need to say I was indeed relieved. Plus my Japenese Slipper cocktail went down so well, thank you to another divine friend who handed it to me as I finished.
The whole night was recorded and may get uploaded to the PechaKucha site which would be just fab. The lovely Linda Dade of Banks and Dade Chiropractic organized the Forster PechaKucha, which was a sellout, deserves a huge thank you and a great big hug for pulling the event and artisans together, for believing in all of us and for making the connections within our growing community, our very own real social network. I feel so blessed and grateful to live here, even more so now knowing the depth of talented individuals that also call Forster and it's surrounds home.